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Things have been happening.
Sep. 10th, 2010 | 12:02 am
mood: 
tired
So I've been using this account to comment on other folks LJs, which brought me back here. I realize that the previous post here is back from 2008, which is... a while ago.
In reference to the previous post, things with Julia went decently well for a while, and then I found out that things weren't going so well in later November, and that things were, in fact, irrepairable. Which isn't the sort of warning I prefer. She broke up with me shortly thereafter, and while we tried to remain friends over the next spring, she found it awkward, asked me never to talk to her again unless she told me she changed her mind, and that's been about that. I send her yearly emails reminding her that I exist, and that I would still like to be her friend if she changes her mind, but no responses on that.
After that, in December 2008 I met a particular Krystal Angel, who is a fellow ASU student, and over the winter, I hooked up with Toshiko, and lost my virginity to her. Misguidedly dated Krystal for a week before realized I was much more attached to Toshiko. Dated Toshiko the rest of the spring, which started nice, but got steadily worse. Toshiko broke up with me summer of 2009, when I went to London, as she didn't want to have a cross-timezone relationship. Instead of getting back together with her at the end of the summer (as she apparently expected), I started dating Krystal again, but properly this time around. I dated her from then until I graduated from college in the spring of 2010, at which point we had agreed to break up, since I did not want a long-distance relationship. Yada, yada. Currently single.
In terms of the rest of life, college continued, and I graduated. I spent the summer of 2009 interning over in London, the winter of 2009-2010 over in Malaysia and Indonesia, graduated in spring 2010, and spent most of the summer of 2010 farming in Ireland via the WWOOF program.
Now, I'm skimming strongly, because while there is a definite time-gap, there are two journals over on blogspot that I maintained from March 2009 to about the start of 2010. I'll probably start updating them again, with massive time-holes and stuff.
One blog is a happy blog, and the other is a sad blog. That way people can avoid reading posts of my whining and bitching, and I can keep a relative balance of said sad content and happier content. The blogs are:
http://whatsupnil.blogspot.com (Happy blog)
and
http://whatsdownnil.blogspot.com (Sad blog)
In reference to the previous post, things with Julia went decently well for a while, and then I found out that things weren't going so well in later November, and that things were, in fact, irrepairable. Which isn't the sort of warning I prefer. She broke up with me shortly thereafter, and while we tried to remain friends over the next spring, she found it awkward, asked me never to talk to her again unless she told me she changed her mind, and that's been about that. I send her yearly emails reminding her that I exist, and that I would still like to be her friend if she changes her mind, but no responses on that.
After that, in December 2008 I met a particular Krystal Angel, who is a fellow ASU student, and over the winter, I hooked up with Toshiko, and lost my virginity to her. Misguidedly dated Krystal for a week before realized I was much more attached to Toshiko. Dated Toshiko the rest of the spring, which started nice, but got steadily worse. Toshiko broke up with me summer of 2009, when I went to London, as she didn't want to have a cross-timezone relationship. Instead of getting back together with her at the end of the summer (as she apparently expected), I started dating Krystal again, but properly this time around. I dated her from then until I graduated from college in the spring of 2010, at which point we had agreed to break up, since I did not want a long-distance relationship. Yada, yada. Currently single.
In terms of the rest of life, college continued, and I graduated. I spent the summer of 2009 interning over in London, the winter of 2009-2010 over in Malaysia and Indonesia, graduated in spring 2010, and spent most of the summer of 2010 farming in Ireland via the WWOOF program.
Now, I'm skimming strongly, because while there is a definite time-gap, there are two journals over on blogspot that I maintained from March 2009 to about the start of 2010. I'll probably start updating them again, with massive time-holes and stuff.
One blog is a happy blog, and the other is a sad blog. That way people can avoid reading posts of my whining and bitching, and I can keep a relative balance of said sad content and happier content. The blogs are:
http://whatsupnil.blogspot.com (Happy blog)
and
http://whatsdownnil.blogspot.com (Sad blog)
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Nightmare.
Sep. 11th, 2008 | 10:07 am
mood: 
blah
Had a nightmare about Julia having doubts about whether her love for me is (was?) real, and breaking up with me but staying friends because she wasn't sure about the whole business. There also were a bunch of references to other things I worry about, like PDAs, having to stay away when she's freaking out / not being helpful, my parents and their plans of things, and not being able to to remember the names of the other (newer) college students.
This would be so much easier to shake off if it didn't keep reminding me of the last nightmare I had (see about 6 or seven posts down, nicely placed in the post before the on about me breaking up with my ex [don't I have the most helpful descriptions]).
On the bright side, this was relatively mild compared to the other dream. I woke up feeling miserable and sick, whereas in the other dream I woke up cold, numb, and horrified. And I'm feeling better now, whereas from the other dream I spend most of my day sobbing or near-sobbing.
I guess that having a dream of your girlfriend breaking up with you and staying friends is a hell of a lot better than having a dream of your girlfriend offing herself because of things you did, on some weird, nasty scale of things. Or maybe I have enough confidence in Julia that I don't need to worry.
Of course, there's the cynic in my mind that reminds me that I thought things with Edelweiss were going well right up until the end.
This would be so much easier to shake off if it didn't keep reminding me of the last nightmare I had (see about 6 or seven posts down, nicely placed in the post before the on about me breaking up with my ex [don't I have the most helpful descriptions]).
On the bright side, this was relatively mild compared to the other dream. I woke up feeling miserable and sick, whereas in the other dream I woke up cold, numb, and horrified. And I'm feeling better now, whereas from the other dream I spend most of my day sobbing or near-sobbing.
I guess that having a dream of your girlfriend breaking up with you and staying friends is a hell of a lot better than having a dream of your girlfriend offing herself because of things you did, on some weird, nasty scale of things. Or maybe I have enough confidence in Julia that I don't need to worry.
Of course, there's the cynic in my mind that reminds me that I thought things with Edelweiss were going well right up until the end.
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MTG: Budget green-black... thing.
May. 21st, 2008 | 02:09 pm
mood: 
creative
So I've been fussing around with what cards to buy from MTGfanatic to be able to make cool decks without spending large amounts of money. Which means I'm testing out cards with Magic Workstation, a program where I could just as easily make a theoretical deck using any card ever printed.
When I get around to my next purchase, I'll have the cards to make this - none of them are terribly expensive, all being in the 29 cents and under range. Hey, I can even add the prices...
When I get around to my next purchase, I'll have the cards to make this - none of them are terribly expensive, all being in the 29 cents and under range. Hey, I can even add the prices...
I like this deck. A lot. In fact, this is probably the deck that is the most "me" - a bunch of little engines plugging away, making more of the cards that they are supposed to, never running out of steam, doing cool things in cool ways. Not entirely practical, but able to do a lot of things eventually. Instead of putting a bunch of very good cards together, I have a bunch of cards that do good together.
First, specific cards that I consider very under-priced, and excellent buys for cost:
And those are the generally underpriced cards in this deck. Frankly, they aren't really "good," per se, but they are a lot better than the 19 cents cost would indicate. Good pieces, anyway. And here we go with the deck in question:
How it plays:
It sits and builds up resources, ignores what the opponent does to stop it, chumpblocks like it doesn't care, and eventually overwhelms the opponent with more cards and more mana. This is done with a bunch of synergy - cards that work well with other cards. Here's why each card is in the deck, and what it helps with:
So, the deck is kind of silly, but kind of fun. Not that if the opponent drops a Moat, or some other enchantment (or artifact) that means that non-flying creatures can't attack, you're basically sunk. Even a creature like that. You just sit there, and eventually deck yourself.
Speaking of decking yourself, it can happen in this deck. I'm thinking of adding in a bunch of creatures to help win particular situations (like the above), and a bunch of land, just so the deck takes longer to get all it's land, and longer to deck itself.
Until then, make really complicated decks with lots of synergy.
-- Wilford
First, specific cards that I consider very under-priced, and excellent buys for cost:
And those are the generally underpriced cards in this deck. Frankly, they aren't really "good," per se, but they are a lot better than the 19 cents cost would indicate. Good pieces, anyway. And here we go with the deck in question:
How it plays:
It sits and builds up resources, ignores what the opponent does to stop it, chumpblocks like it doesn't care, and eventually overwhelms the opponent with more cards and more mana. This is done with a bunch of synergy - cards that work well with other cards. Here's why each card is in the deck, and what it helps with:
So, the deck is kind of silly, but kind of fun. Not that if the opponent drops a Moat, or some other enchantment (or artifact) that means that non-flying creatures can't attack, you're basically sunk. Even a creature like that. You just sit there, and eventually deck yourself.
Speaking of decking yourself, it can happen in this deck. I'm thinking of adding in a bunch of creatures to help win particular situations (like the above), and a bunch of land, just so the deck takes longer to get all it's land, and longer to deck itself.
Until then, make really complicated decks with lots of synergy.
-- Wilford
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Yay personality tests!
Oct. 26th, 2007 | 01:34 am
mood: 
contemplative
I took a personality quiz tonight, and I figured that I would do my habit, and post the results up here with review.
Link:
http://www.personaldna.com/report.php?k=l
The test was surprisingly fun to do, with an interesting yet intuitive way of measuring things. I know that it's less definite than those "Yes-No" "Which describes you more" quizzes, but I definitely did not vomit out the same answers as all the previous times. And it was fun.
Anyway, here's my bit o' chatter:
Anyway, what do all you folk think? What questions do you have? What criticisms do you have in store to help me improve myself? Where do you think the quiz was right? Where was it wrong? What are your alternate evaluations? Be sure to read the actual page itself, as it has some other useful information there.
Well?
Link:
http://www.personaldna.com/report.php?k=l
The test was surprisingly fun to do, with an interesting yet intuitive way of measuring things. I know that it's less definite than those "Yes-No" "Which describes you more" quizzes, but I definitely did not vomit out the same answers as all the previous times. And it was fun.
Anyway, here's my bit o' chatter:
Anyway, what do all you folk think? What questions do you have? What criticisms do you have in store to help me improve myself? Where do you think the quiz was right? Where was it wrong? What are your alternate evaluations? Be sure to read the actual page itself, as it has some other useful information there.
Well?
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It's all about when you do a good thing.
Oct. 1st, 2007 | 11:03 pm
mood: 
pleased
Today, I got in my room after breakfast, and as I sat down at my desk, my phone beeped and said that a voicemail had just been recorded. Curious, I called my voicemail, and listened to a message. Then listened to it again.
I couldn't really tell what was being said, nor did I recognize the number or the voice. It occurred to me that nobody would be calling me now, and of the words I heard, I was pretty sure that it was not something someone would call me about - I have no car, and whether or not it was time to go pick up someone would be pretty strange to tell me.
I almost put off replying to the phone call, as I had other things to do (like write a five-page essay by 6pm that night), but I recalled a particular word: "Time."
You see, if there was time involved, the ill-dialed call would be more than someone not getting someone else's message. Instead, it would be someone missing what he or she was supposed to do. Parted with what I thought I got from the context, I figured that something was happening that might be important.
So I called back, and was answered by the same cheery voice who had left the message on my phone - I told her that I had received a voicemail from this number that I believed was a mis-dial. She asked me if if my number was a particular number, but I only caught the last digits of what she was reciting: "34." I told her that my number ended in 0731, and that she probably hit the wrong key when typing it in. She agreed, and I wished her good luck on her phone call before we hung up.
The whole deal probably took a minute, maybe two.
But I did a good thing.
I'm pretty sure that it was worth the two minutes.
I couldn't really tell what was being said, nor did I recognize the number or the voice. It occurred to me that nobody would be calling me now, and of the words I heard, I was pretty sure that it was not something someone would call me about - I have no car, and whether or not it was time to go pick up someone would be pretty strange to tell me.
I almost put off replying to the phone call, as I had other things to do (like write a five-page essay by 6pm that night), but I recalled a particular word: "Time."
You see, if there was time involved, the ill-dialed call would be more than someone not getting someone else's message. Instead, it would be someone missing what he or she was supposed to do. Parted with what I thought I got from the context, I figured that something was happening that might be important.
So I called back, and was answered by the same cheery voice who had left the message on my phone - I told her that I had received a voicemail from this number that I believed was a mis-dial. She asked me if if my number was a particular number, but I only caught the last digits of what she was reciting: "34." I told her that my number ended in 0731, and that she probably hit the wrong key when typing it in. She agreed, and I wished her good luck on her phone call before we hung up.
The whole deal probably took a minute, maybe two.
But I did a good thing.
I'm pretty sure that it was worth the two minutes.
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I wonder...
Aug. 27th, 2007 | 10:53 am
mood: ponderful
Yesterday I bought a sandwich from Quiznos - it cost about $6, and was very, very good. I paid for the sandwich (I guess it's a sub, technically) with a 20 dollar bill, netting me about $14 in change. The lady at the cashier handed me change in a few coins, about three one dollar bills, and a 10 dollar bill. I accepted the money, and started putting it in my wallet when I noticed something:
The ten dollar bill was soft.
Not just soft as it in wasn't starched or anything, but rather instead of feeling like crisp paper--like the other two bills--it felt more like fine cloth. It was worn, I realized, old and well-used.
It's gone now, used to pay for this morning's bagel, but I wonder...
Where has this bill been? Where is it going? What has its life been like?
I guess I'll never know.
The ten dollar bill was soft.
Not just soft as it in wasn't starched or anything, but rather instead of feeling like crisp paper--like the other two bills--it felt more like fine cloth. It was worn, I realized, old and well-used.
It's gone now, used to pay for this morning's bagel, but I wonder...
Where has this bill been? Where is it going? What has its life been like?
I guess I'll never know.
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Aug. 21st, 2007 | 07:35 am
mood: numb
Last night (including about an hour of this morning), my girlfriend and I broke up. I'm still sort of lost in my future majorly changing. Best of luck for Aurora and Edelweiss, obviously. Well, maybe not so obviously - I mean, it would make sense for me to be pissed, I guess... but they are currently pretty much my two best friends - how am I supposed to be mad at two people amazing as them? I guess not.
Well, maybe part of that would be me sort of choosing this... end of things as the best solution.
So one more dead relationship in this world. Cause of death: Loss of passion.
Oh, and there was the most hilarious exchange in the chat between Aurora and I.
Nil: So, if I am technically dumped, does that make me free to snake on my ex's girl?
Nil: :P
Nil: (Kidding, 'Rora.)
Aurora: *facepalm*
I suppose it was kind of cruel poking Aurora on that subject that she is so apologetic about, but it was so fun...
And... yeah. I might post again tonight, when I have things a bit more sorted out.
Wow...
Well, maybe part of that would be me sort of choosing this... end of things as the best solution.
So one more dead relationship in this world. Cause of death: Loss of passion.
Oh, and there was the most hilarious exchange in the chat between Aurora and I.
Nil: So, if I am technically dumped, does that make me free to snake on my ex's girl?
Nil: :P
Nil: (Kidding, 'Rora.)
Aurora: *facepalm*
I suppose it was kind of cruel poking Aurora on that subject that she is so apologetic about, but it was so fun...
And... yeah. I might post again tonight, when I have things a bit more sorted out.
Wow...
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Nightmare
Jul. 21st, 2007 | 03:12 am
mood: depressed
I just had a nightmare of Edelweiss dying. I've being sobbing my eyes out for the last hour or so, and I'm really depressed right now.
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Back from China.
Jul. 18th, 2007 | 07:26 pm
mood: blank
I'm back from China now. Actually, I got back from China June 28th, or so, but I sort of forgot about LJ while in China - my web-routines (what I check while on the web) just got used to the fact that LJ is censored in China, and thus non-existent.
I sort of remembered that LJ exists yesterday, mostly because I was on http://www.temeraire.org and the author of that series has a link to her LiveJournal on her website. (I have never read the books, but I now plan to.) Some to think of it, the only reason I was there was because Sandara (my favorite artist) has an amazing fan-art based on it.
Anyway, I've had a good few weeks since I got back, which included visiting/being visited by my beloved girlfriend quite a bit. That's sort of the spice of life for me, so I'm happy. It wasn't as good as our plan for me to basically live up there for a week or so, but it's still been quite nice. Just last week I went up and watched her ballet performance (on her birthday), and a few days after that I went for her birthday party, which was a blast.
As life stands, I'm writing two research papers for the study abroad program, and when I am done that, I will have having a going away to college party on August 4th. Then my University starts around the 15th, so I'll have a bit of time to do "stuff" before I leave. Like, all the stuff I wanted to do during the summer.
Maybe this will be my anti-social year at college, and I'll actually get back into writing.
Nah - I love being social.
Anyway, that's the news for now.
I sort of remembered that LJ exists yesterday, mostly because I was on http://www.temeraire.org and the author of that series has a link to her LiveJournal on her website. (I have never read the books, but I now plan to.) Some to think of it, the only reason I was there was because Sandara (my favorite artist) has an amazing fan-art based on it.
Anyway, I've had a good few weeks since I got back, which included visiting/being visited by my beloved girlfriend quite a bit. That's sort of the spice of life for me, so I'm happy. It wasn't as good as our plan for me to basically live up there for a week or so, but it's still been quite nice. Just last week I went up and watched her ballet performance (on her birthday), and a few days after that I went for her birthday party, which was a blast.
As life stands, I'm writing two research papers for the study abroad program, and when I am done that, I will have having a going away to college party on August 4th. Then my University starts around the 15th, so I'll have a bit of time to do "stuff" before I leave. Like, all the stuff I wanted to do during the summer.
Maybe this will be my anti-social year at college, and I'll actually get back into writing.
Nah - I love being social.
Anyway, that's the news for now.
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Gone to China
May. 18th, 2007 | 05:19 am
mood: tired
Later today (about 5:30 am) I am going to be heading off to the airport, and getting on a flight to Bejing (layover in San Franciso). I will then be spending the next few weeks learning about China in a study abroad program. I'll probably check the web periodically via internet cafes, but good advice is to assume that I am just about gone, and expect nothing (easy for me to fulfill, yay!).
See you all in about five weeks.
Love,
-- Nil Athelion
See you all in about five weeks.
Love,
-- Nil Athelion
